Emotion threatened to choke her where it rose in her throat. She had known he would likely ask such a thing of her, just as she knew that it had been the majority of the reason the Queen had asked her to relay the news rather than risk having to argue with or order Aramis to give up the fight and remind them both for thousandth time of all that held them apart from truly being together.
Constance felt unbearably cruel as she shook her head. Necessary as it was, he had been too good a friend to her for her not to understand what she was refusing him, even as it had to be done. She could not guess what might happen if a second Aramis walked into her moment in time as she had left it, and it was that uncertainty along with words Athos had told her of being unable to change the future for all his knowledge that she did not flinch from holding his gaze. "Aramis, I cannot." She could not bring herself to resent the position she hhadas agreed to place herself in for both her friends' sake, for the sake of the dauphin as well as them all, but she still wished it was unnecessary.
"You are there already," she reminded him, "I saw you with the others not an hour before I came here. I will send for you the moment I return, Aramis, I swear it." Her voice held all the conviction that burned in her breast as a part of her begged him to understand and not to hate her for what she had to do. The thought of losing the respect he held for her, that was so important to her, was an agony she could not bear. "I will send someone to fetch you all, and I will remain by her side every moment until I am sure she is safe."
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Date: 2015-06-18 06:08 pm (UTC)Constance felt unbearably cruel as she shook her head. Necessary as it was, he had been too good a friend to her for her not to understand what she was refusing him, even as it had to be done. She could not guess what might happen if a second Aramis walked into her moment in time as she had left it, and it was that uncertainty along with words Athos had told her of being unable to change the future for all his knowledge that she did not flinch from holding his gaze. "Aramis, I cannot." She could not bring herself to resent the position she hhadas agreed to place herself in for both her friends' sake, for the sake of the dauphin as well as them all, but she still wished it was unnecessary.
"You are there already," she reminded him, "I saw you with the others not an hour before I came here. I will send for you the moment I return, Aramis, I swear it." Her voice held all the conviction that burned in her breast as a part of her begged him to understand and not to hate her for what she had to do. The thought of losing the respect he held for her, that was so important to her, was an agony she could not bear. "I will send someone to fetch you all, and I will remain by her side every moment until I am sure she is safe."